I quit the degree I was studying halfway as I started to realise it wasn’t for me. I decided to work full time trying to get an idea of what I would like to do in the mean time.
I felt so much pressure from those around me to be studying and I think that’s where the anxiety really came into play.
The question so many people would ask was “what are you doing, what are you studying”, I had no confidence in myself at the time and meeting people and running into people caused me so much anxiety because generally that’s the question people ask. I really had no idea what to respond because in myself I really had no idea. I felt that so many people would judge me for dropping out, for not knowing what I was doing with my life.
I got to a point where I was so lost, I was depressed and very anxious.
When I think back to that time and how I was feeling I would say, I felt nothing I felt empty, alone, unmotivated, incredibly lost in myself and I just felt like I had completely no direction in my life.
My parents encouraged me to go and see my GP who then referred me to a Psychologist. I saw a Psychologist the next day and from then on things started going up. The Psychologist I saw gave me a completely new outlook on life, it took time but I gradually started to get confidence in myself.
My Psychologist helped me to be more confident, to focus on what I want and to stop worrying what I thought other people would think of my choices. I focused on smaller goal setting that would give me a sense of satisfaction and fulfilment in each day.
Right now I still have no idea what I want to study and I have realised that it’s completely okay, for now I am passionate about my job and am at peace where I am, my mental and physical health has improved so much.
It’s okay to not be okay but it is so important to ask for help.
I can’t wait to see what my next adventure holds. ✨